I feel like these past 2 weeks and especially this week, lots of things are finally coming together..so much is happening and there’s so much to do! Life’s getting busier and I feel like it’s all going so fast that I can barely catch up..and I love it..the thrill of everything, the excitement, the flurry…it makes me so much more excited for the future..makes me feel like I can take it all on. It’s great and after years of working I feel like I just might be getting my break :)
cute felt dot/string curtains!
these chandelier garnishes are on my agenda
I feel like I need some people out of my life…people that stay interested in me for a couple weeks…who I’m super tight with for a while and then suddenly move on..I don’t change at any point in our friendship..I’m always the same person they met. But it hurts seeing them change. And as much as I try to forget ever being close with them, I can’t stop blaming myself for something I never did. It just hurts.
I’m not usually the type that writes out heart felt tumblr posts but today I feel like it’s appropriate..so here goes..
Suddenly it feels like my life is getting busy..I have a lot to do and no time to spare..and it isnt just school work taking up all my time..but its a combination of my music, classes, school, and the new club I just started…and after a long time I finally feel like I’m doing a lot. When it was just academics, it was all stress. But now that my life’s gotten even busier, it feels like I’m more relaxed with this tight schedule. I feel more accomplished..more productive..and more like I’m actually getting somewhere. I feel like there’s always something that needs to be done and when in the past, that made me feel like crap, today it makes me feel somewhat accomplished. It makes me feel active, bubbly, and fresh. It gives me something new to wake up to every morning.
Every night these past 2 months has usually ended with me crashing onto my bed for a couple hours and waking up only when the alarm wakes me up. I wake up in the exact same position I went to sleep in and don’t dream anymore because when I finally get that sleep, my exhaustion and tiredness gives way to pure relief. My good night’s sleep is nothing more than a nap, but even with all that..I feel like I open my eyes everyday and am actually happy instead of grumpy, shitty, and cranky.
I like the busy routine, the constant commitments, and the endless responsibilities and even though a part of me says I should be burned out by now, I feel like I have even more energy than ever to do all that I want to. And even after a couple bad grades, this new feeling keeps me up and running and tells me that I am doing something right..and that I wouldn’t want to be doing anything else..
LOOL
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